Midnight Minuet

He sent me a long letter today. He writes in length, you know, but in person, he does not speak much.

Kind of like you, Blanc.
“I apologise greatly for the state in which I phoned you the other night. I must admit that I was not at my best, and my exposition was unclear.
I am sure you have heard the number of dissenters who object to your affection for me and opine that I am not worthy of your attention. I am afraid that they are absolutely right. That, and recent media coverage, has caused me to admit that, simply put, I am not good for you.”

Do you think he has ever truly felt for me? Or is he only being kind? I hope it is the latter, so he won’t be as hurt.
“On one hand, as a celebrity, you have an image to maintain and your popularity to consider. While I know you will dismiss this as a small matter, your welfare is of utmost concern to me, and this is a facet of it.”

This is all my fault, Blanc. If I had not forced my way into his life, he will not be put in this predicament.
“Furthermore, and this is the more important reason – though our feelings might be mutual, this relationship will never progress. I am to the end a servant, and am bound to another. You have no future with me, and I have come to realise that, despite my own selfish inclinations to the contrary, it is important to me that you should find a suitable partner and pursue a happy life – a course of action you will not take while you still have me in your thoughts.
I am terribly sorry for the pain I am causing you, and, if only I could, would make the burden solely my own to bear. My feelings for you are immutable, but I truly believe this to be for the best.”

I have no one to blame but myself.
“You are the most incredible person I have ever had the fortune to know, and I am confident that out of the scores of worthy people who would fall over themselves to be by your side, you will find the perfect companion and live fulfilled.”

I should forget him, he said. As if it were so easy.
“Please do not attempt to dissuade me from this. I have invested much thought into my actions, and I will not change my mind.”

He has rejected me twice. And despite this, I still am hoping to hear from him.

Am I a fool, Blanc?



May 20th, 2005 - 07:55
*dabs her eyes with a tissue*
It’s so nice to see Blanc again. Sometime the ones that don’t speak provide the best comfort in wordless actions.
May 20th, 2005 - 08:00
Ah, to cuddle your sorrows away…
May 20th, 2005 - 08:20
T_T Whaaaaaa!
(Joey Blanc looks fantastic BTW ^_^)
May 20th, 2005 - 10:28
Aww, Blac is a good friend.
Lovely, moody photos, Joey =)
May 20th, 2005 - 18:57
Aw- I second moonxtal ;_;
Those last 3 shots are so pretty ;_;
-Annie and Kuja love
May 20th, 2005 - 19:21
Uno, do not blame yourself. In matters of the heart, we can not help whom we love. Here is a snippet from one of my favorite female writers:
Passion is not so much an emotion as a destiny.
What choice have I in the face of this wind but to put up my sail & rest my oars?
–Jeanette Winterson (English writer)
From his letter, his feelings sound sincere. Sometimes things needs a little space & time to grow (like plants). If it is meant to be, it will.
In the meantime, try to feel better. Stress & sadness shorten a person’s lifespan. (& yours doesn’t need to be any shorter than necessary.)
May 20th, 2005 - 19:36
I’m feeling awfully sad for you, and for him. The two of you could be together. Ah wells. I suppose… sooner or later, it’ll all be alright again, even if you guys are just friends.
May 21st, 2005 - 17:30
I don’t know if I have a right to comment here as I’m only new to the world of Mistula and heck, you don’t even know me, but this entry really touched me. I hope things work out for you.
May 22nd, 2005 - 00:53
Jenny: Thank you for the lovely verse. I have something for you, too.
Sometimes the current
Is with you, and sometimes against;
Who keeps changing it?
I will wait. And thank you for keeping me company.
May 22nd, 2005 - 00:59
Mainey: Come to think of it, we were never anything more than friends. I am just too hopeful for my own good.
Kura: Nice to meet you, Kura! You have every right to leave a note, and I am glad you did! Thank you so much!
May 22nd, 2005 - 10:22
Nice to meet you too Uno, and you’re welcome ^_^
May 23rd, 2005 - 13:02
I am here if you need your pain taken away *evil grin*