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20May/0512

Midnight Minuet


He sent me a long letter today. He writes in length, you know, but in person, he does not speak much.


Kind of like you, Blanc.

“I apologise greatly for the state in which I phoned you the other night. I must admit that I was not at my best, and my exposition was unclear.

I am sure you have heard the number of dissenters who object to your affection for me and opine that I am not worthy of your attention. I am afraid that they are absolutely right. That, and recent media coverage, has caused me to admit that, simply put, I am not good for you.”


Do you think he has ever truly felt for me? Or is he only being kind? I hope it is the latter, so he won’t be as hurt.

“On one hand, as a celebrity, you have an image to maintain and your popularity to consider. While I know you will dismiss this as a small matter, your welfare is of utmost concern to me, and this is a facet of it.”


This is all my fault, Blanc. If I had not forced my way into his life, he will not be put in this predicament.

“Furthermore, and this is the more important reason – though our feelings might be mutual, this relationship will never progress. I am to the end a servant, and am bound to another. You have no future with me, and I have come to realise that, despite my own selfish inclinations to the contrary, it is important to me that you should find a suitable partner and pursue a happy life – a course of action you will not take while you still have me in your thoughts.

I am terribly sorry for the pain I am causing you, and, if only I could, would make the burden solely my own to bear. My feelings for you are immutable, but I truly believe this to be for the best.”


I have no one to blame but myself.

“You are the most incredible person I have ever had the fortune to know, and I am confident that out of the scores of worthy people who would fall over themselves to be by your side, you will find the perfect companion and live fulfilled.”


I should forget him, he said. As if it were so easy.

“Please do not attempt to dissuade me from this. I have invested much thought into my actions, and I will not change my mind.”


He has rejected me twice. And despite this, I still am hoping to hear from him.


Am I a fool, Blanc?



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  1. *dabs her eyes with a tissue*
    It’s so nice to see Blanc again. Sometime the ones that don’t speak provide the best comfort in wordless actions.

  2. Ah, to cuddle your sorrows away…

  3. T_T Whaaaaaa!

    (Joey Blanc looks fantastic BTW ^_^)

  4. Aww, Blac is a good friend.

    Lovely, moody photos, Joey =)

  5. Aw- I second moonxtal ;_;

    Those last 3 shots are so pretty ;_;

    -Annie and Kuja love

  6. Uno, do not blame yourself. In matters of the heart, we can not help whom we love. Here is a snippet from one of my favorite female writers:

    Passion is not so much an emotion as a destiny.
    What choice have I in the face of this wind but to put up my sail & rest my oars?
    –Jeanette Winterson (English writer)

    From his letter, his feelings sound sincere. Sometimes things needs a little space & time to grow (like plants). If it is meant to be, it will.

    In the meantime, try to feel better. Stress & sadness shorten a person’s lifespan. (& yours doesn’t need to be any shorter than necessary.)

  7. I’m feeling awfully sad for you, and for him. The two of you could be together. Ah wells. I suppose… sooner or later, it’ll all be alright again, even if you guys are just friends.

  8. I don’t know if I have a right to comment here as I’m only new to the world of Mistula and heck, you don’t even know me, but this entry really touched me. I hope things work out for you. :(

  9. Jenny: Thank you for the lovely verse. I have something for you, too.

    Sometimes the current
    Is with you, and sometimes against;
    Who keeps changing it?

    I will wait. And thank you for keeping me company.

  10. Mainey: Come to think of it, we were never anything more than friends. I am just too hopeful for my own good.

    Kura: Nice to meet you, Kura! You have every right to leave a note, and I am glad you did! Thank you so much!

  11. Nice to meet you too Uno, and you’re welcome ^_^

  12. I am here if you need your pain taken away *evil grin*


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